When You’re Not Here #Poetry

The following poem appears in My Ideal Partner: How I Met, Married, and Cared for the Man I Loved Despite Debilitating Odds. This is a memoir about how I met and married my late husband Bill, then cared for him at home for six years after he suffered two strokes that paralyzed his left side. My Ideal Partner is available free from Smashwords until the end of May. See below for details.

This poem describes what life was like for me at home alone while Bill was in the nursing home, recuperating from his first stroke. It also appears in my poetry collection, How to Build a Better Mousetrap: Recollections and Reflections of a Family Caregiver. You can click on the title to hear me read it.

WHEN YOU’RE NOT HERE

I listen to your music,
hear longing in the words,
sit in your chair
surrounded by the warmth,
eat your favorite food,
know your pleasure in the taste,
drink your beverage of choice.
My thirst isn’t quenched.
I imagine your body next to mine.
You’re not here.
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New! The Red Dress

Copyright July 2019 by DLD Books

Front cover contains: young, dark-haired woman in red dress holding flowers

When Eve went to her high school senior prom, she wore a red dress that her mother had made for her. That night, after dancing with the boy of her dreams, she caught him in the act with her best friend. Months later, Eve, a freshman in college, is bullied into giving the dress to her roommate. After her mother finds out, their relationship is never the same again.

Twenty-five years later, Eve, a bestselling author, is happily married with three children. Although her mother suffers from dementia, she still remembers, and Eve still harbors the guilt for giving the dress away. When she receives a Facebook friend request from her old college roommate and an invitation to her twenty-five-year high school class reunion, then meets her former best friend by chance, she must confront the past in order to face the future.

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Breath of Heaven #Monday Musical Memories

I first heard this song in December of 2005, two months after my late husband Bill and I were married. It captivated me, and for some reason, I couldn’t get it out of my head, even after Christmas.

Then in January of 2006, Bill suffered the first of two strokes. I could now identify with the feelings the Virgin Mary expresses in this song. Why me? Did I have to bear this burden alone? Our future was uncertain.

I have since realized that like the Virgin Mary, I was chosen. Unlike the Virgin Mary, I had a choice. I could have said no to Bill’s marriage proposal, but I didn’t. I could have walked away after he suffered his first stroke, but I never considered that as an option.

If Bill and I hadn’t been married, no doubt he would have been alone in January of 2006 in Fowler, Colorado, when he had that stroke. He would have spent the rest of his life in a nursing home because his family would have been unable to care for him. His quality and quantity of life would have been affected. You can read our full story in My Ideal Partner: How I Met, Married, and Cared for the Man I Loved Despite Debilitating Odds.

The song I’m singing today, “Breath of Heaven,” inspired me to write the following poem, which was published in the fall/winter 2018-2019 issue of Magnets and Ladders. If you click on the title, you’ll hear me recite the poem and sing the song.

 

THE POOR BLESSED VIRGIN

 

She stands, alone, cold, weary

after traveling many days and nights.

Why was she chosen to bear this Holy Child?

Must she do it alone?

Will Heaven help her?

 

New! The Red Dress

Copyright July 2019 by DLD Books

Front cover contains: young, dark-haired woman in red dress holding flowers

When Eve went to her high school senior prom, she wore a red dress that her mother had made for her. That night, after dancing with the boy of her dreams, she caught him in the act with her best friend. Months later, Eve, a freshman in college, is bullied into giving the dress to her roommate. After her mother finds out, their relationship is never the same again.

Twenty-five years later, Eve, a bestselling author, is happily married with three children. Although her mother suffers from dementia, she still remembers, and Eve still harbors the guilt for giving the dress away. When she receives a Facebook friend request from her old college roommate and an invitation to her twenty-five-year high school class reunion, then meets her former best friend by chance, she must confront the past in order to face the future.

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Saturday song: Breath of Heaven by Amy Grant

I’m not sure when this came out, but when I first heard it in 2005, I was captivated. Most sacred Christmas carols are about the joy and celebration surrounding the birth of Christ, but not many people have considered how the Virgin Mary felt upon learning she was pregnant with the Messiah. At first, not even Joseph believed that God was the father of her child. Can you imagine how that would feel?

In 2006 after my late husband Bill suffered his first stroke, this song kept going through my head. I realized that it was because I could identify with Mary. Although I wasn’t a virgin pregnant with the Son of God and considered a hor by family, friends, and even the man I loved, I still felt alone and afraid with an uncertain future because Bill was so changed after his stroke, and we weren’t sure if he would walk again.

You can read more of our story in My Ideal Partner. Meanwhile, if you haven’t heard this song before, I hope it resonates with you as it did with me.

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Author Abbie Johnson Taylor

We Shall Overcome

How to Build a Better Mousetrap: Recollections and Reflections of a Family Caregiver

That’s Life: New and Selected Poems

My Ideal Partner: How I Met, Married, and Cared for the Man I Loved Despite Debilitating Odds

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